and on and on...and much too fast. Don't you sometimes wish that you could stop it for awhile? Or at least slow it down?
Yesterday we got a call that hubby's aunt had passed away. She was the last of his dad's siblings. They are all gone now. I had met them all except for his dad, of course, who had passed away from cancer when Tom was young. I wish I could have known him too. It is strange to know you are the oldest generation left. My dad and his siblings were all gone by 1985. That's a long time ago. Four of my mom's siblings are still alive and I cannot imagine a world with all of them gone.
Last week I took my youngest child, my only daughter to college. I just can't believe that she is that old. Wasn't it just yesterday when the doctor lifted her up after she was born and said, "See it IS a girl!" Wasn't it just yesterday she started preschool, kindergarten, middle school? Wasn't it just yesterday she started high school and we couldn't believe she was that old? I remember thinking how time was flying then....suddenly, it started to go a whole lot faster!
All too soon we were sitting at her high school graduation...So proud. But still, finding it hard to believe that it could be possible already.
I knew this summer would go fast. Her last summer home before she moved away to college. It was a busy summer which made the time go even faster...She started counting down the days to when she got to move down there. I started counting the days to when I HAD to take her there.
We got her moved in and I didn't cry when we pulled away. I thought I would. Saved that until later. I had to put something in her room, and then it hit me. She is not here. I went shopping yesterday, our normal day to hang and do that. It was lonely. I have tears right now. I miss her for sure. I don't like she isn't here. BUT I am excited for her and what lies ahead for her. What a wonderful time of your life. I am excited to get to know this adult daughter of mine. Yes the doll houses and Barbies are long gone, but I relish this new chapter with her. I just wish it hadn't come so fast!
That is what is on my mind right now, my friends!
I'm in your place Joy only a year earlier - your words about us counting down the days (but from different perspectives) really hit me.
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I remember when she started her senior year, thinking this is it. This is a year of all lasts....it was a strange year. I remember thinking we had a whole year...but let me tell you..that year flew by....All too fast!!
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